Speed Freak's Cure for Depression

So Freak fell hard and fast me, and I tried to fall for him. But at this point I'd been left my the love my life and then dumped by my freakin' rebound guy, Chainsaw, so I was a little guarded.

Anyway, he kept hounding me to let him in, to be open with him, to talk about my feelings.

Imagine that, a man who WANTS a woman to talk about her feelings.

Well, I kept deflecting him until he took me to see Black Hawk Down. I don't know what it was about this film, but something about it triggered a response to all the surgeries I had to go through as child. Suddenly I felt very fragile and very sad.

And since he wanted me to let him in...

So I told him about what it was like to have multiple surgeries, to have an insane father who couldn't be relied upon to be emotionally supportive during terrifying and painful tests, to be used as a living teaching aid to young medical students. How isolating, sad, and terrifying all of this was. I got to the end and looked up with him tearfilled eyes expecting him to be happy that I finally revealed to him a small part of what I have gone through.

His eyes met mine and he said,

"Well, just don't think those thoughts."